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Sarena Yadav

4 updates, last on Sep 30, 2026

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Questions this week

Week 4

Can an action be both voluntary and involuntary? If I consciously choose something because I have been conditioned to choose it, is that still my choice? When does influence become control? When does convenience become dependence? When does participation become compliance? Can I voluntarily participate in something that produces involuntary behavior? Do I need to be aware of a system to participate in it? What does “consent” mean when I don't understand the system I am consenting to? Is choosing the default actually choosing? If there is no visible alternative, am I making a choice? What happens when I know I am being influenced but still participate?

Week 3

Why do I do things I know I don't want to do? When does a choice stop feeling like a choice? What makes me follow something without questioning it? When do I notice that I am behaving automatically? What makes me pause? What makes me not pause? Is hesitation a weakness, or is it evidence that I am thinking? What happens between wanting to do something and actually doing it? Can I make a decision without being influenced by something? How much of my behavior is actually mine? When do I become aware of my own behavior? What makes me repeat something even when there is no real reason to? Why does repetition sometimes create mastery and sometimes create dependence? What is the difference between habit, choice, and compulsion?

Week 2

Why are systems designed to produce predictable behavior? What does a system gain when I behave predictably? What happens when I behave unpredictably? Can a system exist without rules? Who creates the rules? Who benefits from the rules? Who gets excluded by the rules? What happens when the human follows the system perfectly? What happens when the human refuses? What happens when the human misunderstands the system? Can misunderstanding become a way of escaping a system? What does a system do when someone doesn't behave as expected? Does a system need humans to cooperate with it in order to function? If humans collectively stopped participating, would the system still exist? What keeps a loop alive? What makes me enter a loop? What makes me stay? What makes me return? What makes me believe I am choosing when I am actually repeating? Does a loop need to feel good to continue? Can something become a loop without me realizing it? At what point does a repeated action become a system? Can I identify the exact moment a loop begins? Can I identify the exact moment it becomes difficult to leave? Is the loop created by the system, by the human, or by both? If I remove the system, does the behavior disappear? If I remove the behavior, does the system still exist? Who is actually maintaining the loop?

Week 1

The same questions as in the doc keep recurring

Research discoveries

Week 4

I was thinking of voluntary and involuntary to be a whole and for me hesitation was something else which didn't associate to that or maybe I didn't think of it in that way but hesitation is something which lies between voluntary and involuntary.

Week 3

It takes something ambient and unconscious — the rhythm of your typing — and converts it into legible categories: "Fast & Decisive," "Hesitant," "Self-Correcting." That move (raw behavior → timestamped signal → classified label) is the exact pipeline used by keystroke-dynamics authentication, productivity-monitoring software, some fraud-detection systems, and even certain hiring/proctoring tools. They all take something you didn't consciously produce as data and turn it into a verdict about you. This tool does that too. The difference is who's holding the label. Most critiques of these systems are external — "here's how they watch you." What you're doing is turning the apparatus on yourself first, so you become both the surveilled and the one reading the output. That's a specific, recognized move: sometimes called sousveillance (watching from below/inside rather than from above), and it has a long lineage — quantified-self practices, self-tracking as resistance, Foucault's account of how disciplinary systems work best when the subject starts watching themselves. This tool literalize that last point: you don't need an external observer once you've built the observer into your own writing interface.

Week 2

Through my research, I’ve started to understand systems less as something that exists outside of us and more as something that we continuously participate in and reinforce. I began by looking at digital systems such as social media, search engines, notifications, recommendations, and other everyday interfaces, but I gradually became more interested in what happens between the system and the person using it. I noticed that repetition can make behaviors feel automatic, even when we initially chose to participate in them voluntarily. One thing that surprised me was how difficult it is to separate voluntary behavior from involuntary behavior. A person can consciously choose to do something and still be responding to patterns, expectations, or structures they have become accustomed to. This made me interested in the moment between stimulus and response, especially hesitation. I began thinking of hesitation and friction not simply as interruptions or inefficiencies, but as moments where a person might become aware of their behavior and have an opportunity to make a different choice. I also realized that I don’t want my research to position humans simply as victims of systems. Humans also sustain systems through their repeated participation. This made the idea of the “loop” more important to my research: systems shape behavior, behavior reinforces systems, and the cycle continues. I am now interested in where that loop can be made visible or interrupted, and what role design can play in creating that moment of awareness without simply becoming another system that tells people what to do.

Week 1

What I started with has entirely changed, I am on the opposite end now.

Other work

Week 4

I was reading digital thought as sound, and would like to think about all our five senses in relation to my thesis as well maybe

Week 3

The un-deletable draft. Write something significant with backspace physically disabled (tape over the key, or a simple app that blocks it). Every typo, every wrong turn of phrase, stays. Track how many times your hand reaches for backspace anyway — that reflexive reach, hitting a key that does nothing, is itself data about how trained you are to erase failure the instant it appears. https://editor.p5js.org/syadav4/full/C1l6RdD8l

Week 2

This week I tried to narrow down my thesis and was thinking about hesitation, voluntary and involuntary as a whole.

Week 1

I was thinking about talking to people from these three categories, 1 - people who use these digital systems almost every minute and are dependent on them for literally everything (us). 2 - people who create these systems, app, websites… 3 - people who do not rely on these systems to a huge extent. I think observing their behaviour and comparing them would help me understand.

Other questions or notes

Week 4

no

Week 3

Is the endpoint of the thesis this self-tracking, or is it meant to scale to watching others move through systems (you said "starting with myself" — implying a next step)? Is the critique aimed at surveillance broadly, or something more specific — algorithmic judgment of "productivity"/"competence," authentication systems, something else? What form is the thesis in — written, installation, performance, interactive piece people will use themselves?

Week 2

no.

Week 1

Not as of now

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