Week 5
Do you see how whenever we think of hesitation, there is this negative thought that it is something bad, but it is very important to be hesitant. Hesitation is good, It helps you reflect on yourself before making a decision. To be hesitant is to be a human.
To look back I was always wondering about the two points of the start and end to something and kept wondering in between space, the unsettling space…the uncertain space, the place filled with friction, the hesitation. And for me the starting point is something which is the state of being voluntary, and the end point is the state of being involuntary. I like how it has evolved over time. I was looking and studying systems and how we are stuck in a loop of making systems (voluntary) and getting shaped back by them (involuntary) and I wanted to break this loop, create friction. Eventually when I sat with these systems and gave a thought that why am I calling these systems bad, they were and are designed for us by us for the good of us, its on us how “we use them” so rather than looking outside we need to look on the inside and ofcourse i cant change everyone so ill start with myself. Hence in the system of humans, I would need to learn how to break the loop within myself, how to create the friction in more human terms and learn how to hesitate.
Week 4
I was thinking of voluntary and involuntary to be a whole and for me hesitation was something else which didn't associate to that or maybe I didn't think of it in that way but hesitation is something which lies between voluntary and involuntary.
Week 3
It takes something ambient and unconscious — the rhythm of your typing — and converts it into legible categories: "Fast & Decisive," "Hesitant," "Self-Correcting." That move (raw behavior → timestamped signal → classified label) is the exact pipeline used by keystroke-dynamics authentication, productivity-monitoring software, some fraud-detection systems, and even certain hiring/proctoring tools. They all take something you didn't consciously produce as data and turn it into a verdict about you. This tool does that too. The difference is who's holding the label.
Most critiques of these systems are external — "here's how they watch you." What you're doing is turning the apparatus on yourself first, so you become both the surveilled and the one reading the output. That's a specific, recognized move: sometimes called sousveillance (watching from below/inside rather than from above), and it has a long lineage — quantified-self practices, self-tracking as resistance, Foucault's account of how disciplinary systems work best when the subject starts watching themselves. This tool literalize that last point: you don't need an external observer once you've built the observer into your own writing interface.
Week 2
Through my research, I’ve started to understand systems less as something that exists outside of us and more as something that we continuously participate in and reinforce. I began by looking at digital systems such as social media, search engines, notifications, recommendations, and other everyday interfaces, but I gradually became more interested in what happens between the system and the person using it. I noticed that repetition can make behaviors feel automatic, even when we initially chose to participate in them voluntarily.
One thing that surprised me was how difficult it is to separate voluntary behavior from involuntary behavior. A person can consciously choose to do something and still be responding to patterns, expectations, or structures they have become accustomed to. This made me interested in the moment between stimulus and response, especially hesitation. I began thinking of hesitation and friction not simply as interruptions or inefficiencies, but as moments where a person might become aware of their behavior and have an opportunity to make a different choice.
I also realized that I don’t want my research to position humans simply as victims of systems. Humans also sustain systems through their repeated participation. This made the idea of the “loop” more important to my research: systems shape behavior, behavior reinforces systems, and the cycle continues. I am now interested in where that loop can be made visible or interrupted, and what role design can play in creating that moment of awareness without simply becoming another system that tells people what to do.
Week 1
What I started with has entirely changed, I am on the opposite end now.
Weel 6: Provotype
Okay so I’m freaking out and I’m thinking why am I internalizing it it’s actually how the systems are built to trap humans why am I pointing the finger at humans it’s the systems and such humans who make them to make us stuck in loops and who are bad why am I pointing the fingers back I know the world is grey but there is good and bad as well why am I stuck
Started with this overwhelming space. What is this overwhelming space?
Figuring out the space between the starting and ending point of something? What is even that ? Starting point of what? Ending what ?
Let’s for instance take a task or as simple as an assignment I do have fun while doing it wtf am I doing.
I read my thesis proposal rn and I’m in the space again maybe a good sign that means I really care, that means I really want to figure it out and grow out of it for a moment I did started to internalize it and started questioning myself, us humans infact.
